*stella and me:)
well. i don't intend to post initially.
but still, i am here.
i am so free at the moment.
did lots of stuffs today.
i would rather do something more meaningful.
i have always wanted to do some volunteering work.
like helping out in the old forks home.
it will be fun i suppose.
i told my mom about it and she laughed.
and even added, 'you can't even take care of yourself and still want volunteer?'
and we'll start bickering.
but at the very least, i will be able to be occupied with things to do.
anyways, its 12:07 now, my mom just returned from work.
well, though she have never openly showed affection,
but i know she loves me.
she brought supper back for me:)
also, how annoying can my brother be?
he spilled oil onto me. grr.
he will never know that he is wrong.
he laughed and said, 'heh hehs, you shouldn't have stand there.'
family is going out for dinner tomorrow.
ask me out somebody please.
i don't wanna go for that dinner.
it will be so so so boring..
this post seems to be rather messy.
and the tenth thing that i am gonna do today is to shower and then, run along to bed.
hopefully, sweet dreams.
goodnights to all.
but still, i am here.
i am so free at the moment.
did lots of stuffs today.
1. went to the picnic in the morning. made a new friend, stella :)
2. met jingyun.
3. wandered around Downtown and Tampines, those three shopping malls.
4. visited my mom's salon.
5. homed, chatted with my grandmother.
6. went online.
7. watched television shows with her.
8. finished reading the latest issue of SEVENTEEN magazine.
9. right here blogging.
if this is how everyday gonna be like,2. met jingyun.
3. wandered around Downtown and Tampines, those three shopping malls.
4. visited my mom's salon.
5. homed, chatted with my grandmother.
6. went online.
7. watched television shows with her.
8. finished reading the latest issue of SEVENTEEN magazine.
9. right here blogging.
i would rather do something more meaningful.
i have always wanted to do some volunteering work.
like helping out in the old forks home.
it will be fun i suppose.
i told my mom about it and she laughed.
and even added, 'you can't even take care of yourself and still want volunteer?'
and we'll start bickering.
but at the very least, i will be able to be occupied with things to do.
anyways, its 12:07 now, my mom just returned from work.
well, though she have never openly showed affection,
but i know she loves me.
she brought supper back for me:)
also, how annoying can my brother be?
he spilled oil onto me. grr.
he will never know that he is wrong.
he laughed and said, 'heh hehs, you shouldn't have stand there.'
family is going out for dinner tomorrow.
ask me out somebody please.
i don't wanna go for that dinner.
it will be so so so boring..
this post seems to be rather messy.
and the tenth thing that i am gonna do today is to shower and then, run along to bed.
hopefully, sweet dreams.
goodnights to all.
**edited.
this is part2 i supposed.
i couldn't sleep.
i got so much to say.
but nobody to confide with so i am gonna rant everything out here.
it have only been _days, and i am going crazy.
i thought yesterday will be again, 'the perfect day'.
grr. it takes courage which i don't have any.
i broke through my fears.
but nonetheless, i got nothing.
i felt so inferior.
the world seems so big and yet i am so small.
gosh. i felt so exposed without any sense of security.
i don't know why but everything seems so mundane.
i don't like it this way.
without me noticing, a teardrop rolled down my cheeks.
whats the reason for all of this.
at the same time, i feel so pathetic.
i am being abandoned.
i am all alone.
who in the world is gonna tell me what to do next.
what is happiness?
what is bliss?
i witnessed them but never once encountered them.
i am bottled up with so much.
teach me how to let them go.
t i got sick and tired of them.
