One step at a time

i love my wedges:D

Friday, June 26, 2009

edit.

well, went out with jingyun is the late afternoon.
she sort of recovered.
so, we went out for dinner.
then, went fooling around in NTUC.
staying at home is boring.
every minute seems to be like a hour.
in conclusion, i will want to go out to study when school reopens.
gah gahs. pictures are at the bottom.
who says, i only wear cooling tops?
i am wearing sleeved top.
do check them out. :D

BELL'S FOOD DIARY

Breakfast
2 small curry puffs.

Lunch
1/2 plate of noodles.
1cup of plain water.
1cup of prune juice.

Dinner
chicken pasta.
1ice chocolate.
3cups of plain water.

Repair
30min cardio.

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111th post. :D

gah gahs.
i can't stop smiling.
took more than 35 photos today.
well, deleted some.
haven't been updating photos to blogger.
cause the photos will mess up and i don't like it.
this will be a uber long post.
i will be uploading photos and last but not least.
my food diary.
heh hehs. i wanna see what i ate for the whole day.
woke up at 844am this morning.
accompanied jingyun to the clinic.
she felt feverish and called me telling me that she might have contracted swine flu.
hahas. when reached the clinic, she was asked to wear a mask.
and yea she did. i tied the mask for her.
the funny thing is i don't know how to.
so, i tied two big bows at the side of the ear.
and we did not realise that its wrong.
until we reached the lift and saw the poster sort of.
hahahas. sigh. should have taken a photo of it. funny.
so i paid her medical bills.
in another words, i can't cab to ballet on sunday!
hahahas. okays maybe its good to take the bus once in a while.
so, after that went to meet ziming.
heh hehs. i think i have nothing better to do.
i am feeling extremely guilty.
shouldn't have meet him today.
i think i am so so selfish nor.
meet up for my own benefits.
i wanted to ask for advice but i did not voice out.
i caused him to be late for his next meeting.
so so sorry.
he is uber busy.
and that i should have walk faster.
but but.. the blister hurts.
and thats the only reason why i am dragging my foot.
its time to invest in a new shoe.
i have been wearing old shoes out this few days.
i didn't know i have so much shoes until that day when i went into my store room.
and woah. i saw shoes!
hahas. enough of shoes.
then, went to my aunt's place.
played with my lil cousins.
its so tiring.
but the maid prepared delicious pasta.
hahas. was bloated after consuming the pasta.
i think tomorrow's breakfast is settled.
well, next up will be my food diary and photos.
stay tuned:D

BELL'S FOOD DIARY.

Breakfast
100ml ice chocolate milk.

Lunch
pasta.
1cup of coke.

Dinner
baby's food.
1/2 cup of orange juice
2cups of plain water.
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Repair
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they are the angels that made my day.
thank you:D

Wednesday, June 24, 2009

deleted.
:)

ease that shopping urge.

oh my god!
i saw one super stunning summer dress from BC.
its damn pretty.
i need something to ease that shopping urge.
i haven't receive my tube top from AE.
and now i am gonna buy another dress?
oh no. nope. i must learn to save money.
i don't need that dress.
yes. so i am not buying it.
the extremely pretty and intricate embroidery details..
FAINTS*
goodness gracious.
also, i saw that tote from victoria secrets.
that dress from forever21.
that dress from asos.
that shoe from gojane.
ouch! i can't get anything.
i still got tonnes of brand new clothes in my wardrobe.
okays. i am not buying anything.
but seriously, that bag from chanel.
dead gorgeous.
but the price is enough for me to survive for 6months without pocket money and shopping everyday.
i supposed.
i am not buying anything.
shucks. alright. went to the mall with my mom in the morning.
she specially took off and accompany me.
jealous? hahas.
window shopped.
saw nothing i fancy.
i am hard to please indeed.
alright. shall end my post here.
anyways, i have created a quiz in FB.
feel free to try:D
goodbyes:D

gah gahs.

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

so, i stayed at home for the whole day.
i am a boring person.
i woke up rather late today.
and for the first time ever,
i find windows live messager annoying.
i tried three times to get myself online.
holidays will be ending this week.
heard that there is no extension.
just hope there will be.
i have yet to visit the science center.
yet to go to the choco buffet.
yet to fly a kite.
yet to go out with my mom.
yet to visit the museum.
yet to go swimming.
so much things that were left undo.
also, i don't know if i am gonna stop ballet.
teacher won't be teaching at pasir ris anymore.
troubles = stress.
i haven't show my parents my report card.
they will be utterly upset like how i am the other time.
i think i am pathetic. what do you think?

disastrous.

Monday, June 22, 2009

well, went to cityhall in the morning with my dad and brother.
had a super breakfast.
i am bound to gain weight after eating so much.
met jingyun and her family in bugis then.
i swear, i hated bugis terribly.
especially bugis street.
i was taken advantage by an old man.
~!@#$%^&*()_+
Gees. i am not going there again without a guy.
hahas. today is once again another unproductive day.
i intend to study at home after breakfast.
but lots of temptations.
gonna go swimming with jingyun on one of these days.
cool. bought my swim wear already.
super loving it. heh hehs.
i should start studying tomorrow.
since i am not asked out, i will stay at home to study.
claps! kudos to myself. no television, nothing.
except my lappy. :D
anyways, just realised that nobody seems to be interested in ballet performances.
BALLET UNDER THE STARS.
only my ballet mates are sort of interested.
and i think the ticket are roughly sold out. D:
how sad. it will be so cool to sit under the stars and watch the dance.
no tickets, no entry. i am gonna miss it this time.
just have to wait till next year. D:
sad. sad. sad.
greedy girl here says goodbyes.

Sunday, June 21, 2009

i am contented:D

happy father's day:D

Saturday, June 20, 2009

gah gahs:D
its father's day.
heh hehs. celebrated father's day yesterday.
the food was such a blast.
ate so much that the food can't digest properly.
hahas. i am feeling so full right now though i did not eat anything in the morning.
so uncomfortable!
did not attend ballet today.
cause i think i may puke any time.
i don't want to dirty the studio.
hahas. but current mood is so bouncy.
i wanna dance in the studio.
spin and spin and spin.
until i fall, i will start laughing.
hahas. sounds like a mad woman huh.
alrights. shall end my post here.
lying down is the most comfortable position.
so, i shall rest.
i'll return in the late afternoon or night.
zoom zoom:D

strange.

Friday, June 19, 2009

thinking through the whole night, i think i am being childish.
too imaginative i guess.
hahas. i am gonna stay at home today.
each time, when i receive a new message, i will get uber excited.
thinking its from the same person.
but each time, it doesn't fail to disappoint me.
i waited and waited and waited.
i believe good things will come to those who wait.
especially to those patient ones.
as time goes by, i begin to doubt myself.
also, beginning to doubt you.
maybe all along i am right.
you don't think the same way.
just some pure coincidence.
somehow or rather, by mere chances.
queer isn't it?
if i haven't been so lazy all this while,
it wouldn't have resulted to all this.
i think i am the silliest girl on the whole entire planet.
naive? i used to believe everything i saw or read.
but not anymore.
people who claimed that they miss each other over the Internet is to fabricate another story.
to maintain the friendship somehow?
anyways, i realised, people have been updating their blogs with what happened on that day itself.
whereas i am scribbling down my perspective of life.
i will consider closing my blog cause i don't wish to be different.
i'll be replying tags on this post.
goodbyes.

i can't read minds and i don't like guessing games.
just tell me.
i'll be grateful.

Tags reply.
Isabelle: why would you wanna conceal your whole entire body? also, you won't need help for your spilts anymore if you work harder on them. i am behind you 100% (:
Adabelle: you are linked too. thanks anyways.
Vanessa: yea. and thanks to you, i think i am the first one to eat a banana in the studio. also, may the 'honourable' title stay.
Katherine: saw you already. hope you enjoyed yourself yesterday(:
Yuting: grateful for your accompany that day. hope there will be more to come (:
Vanessa: went already!
Sis: are you leonard? hahas.
Xiaorou: thank you(:
Isabelle: what where got? hahs.
Isabelle's sister: where on earth did you get my link from. hahas. thanks for visiting. hope to hear more from you. (:
Vanessa: I WENT OUT WITH KATHERINE AND VANESSA YESTERDAY TOO. happy? hhaas.

lifeless.

*stella and me:)

well. i don't intend to post initially.
but still, i am here.
i am so free at the moment.
did lots of stuffs today.

1. went to the picnic in the morning. made a new friend, stella :)
2. met jingyun.
3. wandered around Downtown and Tampines, those three shopping malls.
4. visited my mom's salon.
5. homed, chatted with my grandmother.
6. went online.
7. watched television shows with her.
8. finished reading the latest issue of SEVENTEEN magazine.
9. right here blogging.

if this is how everyday gonna be like,
i would rather do something more meaningful.
i have always wanted to do some volunteering work.
like helping out in the old forks home.
it will be fun i suppose.
i told my mom about it and she laughed.
and even added, 'you can't even take care of yourself and still want volunteer?'
and we'll start bickering.
but at the very least, i will be able to be occupied with things to do.
anyways, its 12:07 now, my mom just returned from work.
well, though she have never openly showed affection,
but i know she loves me.
she brought supper back for me:)
also, how annoying can my brother be?
he spilled oil onto me. grr.
he will never know that he is wrong.
he laughed and said, 'heh hehs, you shouldn't have stand there.'
family is going out for dinner tomorrow.
ask me out somebody please.
i don't wanna go for that dinner.
it will be so so so boring..
this post seems to be rather messy.
and the tenth thing that i am gonna do today is to shower and then, run along to bed.
hopefully, sweet dreams.
goodnights to all.

**edited.
this is part2 i supposed.
i couldn't sleep.
i got so much to say.
but nobody to confide with so i am gonna rant everything out here.
it have only been _days, and i am going crazy.
i thought yesterday will be again, 'the perfect day'.
grr. it takes courage which i don't have any.
i broke through my fears.
but nonetheless, i got nothing.
i felt so inferior.
the world seems so big and yet i am so small.
gosh. i felt so exposed without any sense of security.
i don't know why but everything seems so mundane.
i don't like it this way.
without me noticing, a teardrop rolled down my cheeks.
whats the reason for all of this.
at the same time, i feel so pathetic.
i am being abandoned.
i am all alone.
who in the world is gonna tell me what to do next.
what is happiness?
what is bliss?
i witnessed them but never once encountered them.
i am bottled up with so much.
teach me how to let them go.
t i got sick and tired of them.

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

* funny:D

well, woke up rather early today.
went to the mall in the afternoon alone.
i swear i am not gonna go out alone the next time.
terrible things happened and i called michelle out.
lucky enough, she wasn't working.
waited 2hours for her to reach.
hahas. walked around.
and homed.
i'll reply tags tomorrow.
i am gonna bake now.
goodbyes.

100th post.

Sunday, June 14, 2009

*picture of the day.

so if you have noticed, this is the 100th post for my blog.
went for ballet in the afternoon and teacher forced me to eat a banana.
i lost my stretches.
but kudos to myself.
instead of going home, i went for ballet.
terrible stomach cramps!
!@#$%^&*()_+
also, i changed my display picture.
i can't stop laughing after this was taken.
horrible but funny.
goodbyes:D

Friday, June 12, 2009

hellos peeps!

well, my grandmother woke me up at 930 in the morning.
and we went out and yadadadah.
to reward myself for being so discipline,
staying at home for the whole of yesterday,
i bought myself a limited edition lipstick.
sounded too old for people like me to buy those kindda thing yea?
but in anyways, i love that lipstick.
its in copper crystal, pinkish kind of color.
the color is just too pretty to restrain myself from buying.
oh man. hahas. i am laughing now.
cause i think this post will end up like craps.
i just finished studying on the chapter, transfer of thermal energy.
nothing much happened today.
in conclusion,
my grandmother woke me up super early and i slept at 4 last night.
in another words, i only got 5++hours of beauty sleep.
i am gonna sleep earlier tonight.
also, i bought something new for myself.
and seriously, i love my grandmother.
because she bought me bird nest.
kekes. rubbish. craps. trash. whatever it is.
i am ending this post here.
thanks for reading.
bye byes:D

*no photos for this post.
my grandmother complained that those photos are too unglam.

random post.

well, stayed at home for the whole day.
i am greedy real greedy.
i want everyday to be just like yesterday and the day before.
i am feeling so unusual.
also, i have been browsing through my blog.
reading every single post i posted.
i think i have grown alot.
looking back, i didn't know i could be so childish.
i can't believe thats what i typed.
i even start laughing.
hahas. its funny.
anyways, i don't really have appetite for this few days.
but, i am craving for some red bean and Korean rice cake right now.
perhaps with green tea.
thinking of those makes me hungry.
hahas. its weird, i cooked noodles for my brother just now.
and when i saw it, i feel like vomiting.
and i don't know why.
weird eh? heh hehs.
i still can't do a complete center split.
a little more and i'll reach the ground.
but that seems to be my limit.
i guess i will have to stay in that position for 30minutes tomorrow.
and the deadline is on sunday.
i won't want to go through another torturous class.
not knowing what else will teacher do to me.
whatever it is, i know it hurts.
i don't know whats so difficult about center spilt.
i just couldn't do it.
i am okay with my side spilts but not center one.
grr. i am angry. seriously angry.

wonderful day:D

Thursday, June 11, 2009

hellos earthlings:D
well, back to edit this post.
went out with ziming yesterday.
its supposed to be a group outing but the rest just backout in the last minute. D:
but still, had a great day. :D
i have not been watching movie throughout this whole year
and i caught my first one yesterday.
followed by, east coast park.
though i did not eat much yesterday, don't blame me.
blame my stomach.
its not working well this few days.
but people, i am definitely a person you can bring to buffets:D
and we started walking along the beach.
heh hehs. i have never walked like that in my whole entire life.
but i definitely enjoy the walk.
its so funny.
my parents brought me to the beach twice.
once was when i am still a baby, the other was when i am in primary 5.
then, when night falls, we have to walk all the way to the end of the park!
its tiring. very.
so don't ever choose path1. choose2:D
but there is advantage walking like that.
it will help you to burn out lots of calories.
hahas. for so long, i did not really enjoy myself.
and i think i have been smiling and laughing for the whole day.
thank god for what happened yesterday.
and hope that there will be more to come.
when school reopen, everyday will be so boring.
studying on the weekdays then going church on saturdays and ballet on sundays.
boring. anyways,
BALLET UNDER THE STARS.
click on that. anyone wants to go with me?
i will be delighted if you are are willing to.
hope to hear more from you people.
in another words, tagg me!
alrights shall end my post here.
goodbyes:D

i had a date today :D

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

well well.
i am back to edit this post.
i had a date today.
hehe.
so i went dating with Isabelle.
she have been a great listening ear.
funn! went out from 1 to 7.
have been staying at home for the past few days.
and finally, i am out.
i am replying tags now.
laziness caused me to be flooded with tags.
will be posting again tomorrow.
goodbyes.
*ilovecoral.

TAGS REPLY.
charmine : i know who you are. :D
yuting : hahas. what a santa mama i have here.
jialin : glad you know you are tagging the most. but i don't see your name on my tagboard anymore. tag me:D
huiyao : thanks for tagging.
l-weixuan : hia!
vanessa : updated:D
shermin : linked:D
junguo : exams are over. sorry for the late reply.
razlina : relinked:D
michelle : met already. update your blog with our photos please. i wanna steal them:D
l-weixuan : relaxed:D
vanessa : told you already:D
l-weixuan : its kindda troublesome to blog daily. but i'll try :D
nasrun : i am still gonna wait. call me stubborn then.
rumin : amen here too. what do you mean by, ' Its __ ___ ?' hahas. it might be what you are thinking of. :D
kellypang: hellos:D
l-weixuan : i am happy now:D
beatrice : hi there. tag more often:D
michelle : yea. love you too.
isabelle : ahahas. i don't wannt become lesbian.
rais : whats niaoz?
shona : smiles:D
jialin : thanks for the concern:D
suhui : i have a great daughter here:D
isabelle : i can conceal them. so you learnt whats concealer today:D
gwendolyn : relinked:D
shermin : cheers:D
shona : yea. i had a date today. jealous eh. hahas.

Tuesday, June 9, 2009

i have been trying so hard to forget those incidents.
but everything came back to me.
this have been causing me to feel insomnia for so long.
people have been saying that i am crazy because i wanted to fall sick.
but have you even wondered why.
i hope that those short term misery will put an end to my long term ones.
so many things happened to me.
again and again i was being accused.
and recently, i went for my uncle's funeral whereby, i hid all sadness within myself.
only start to cry when i am alone.
when i can actually get over his death,
i was being accused again.
and soon, people will start saying that i am trying to act like some innocent kids.
maybe i am too sensitive.
whatever people said just got stuck in my head.
and it seems forever.
the harder i try to forget, those images of misery seems to be clearer and clearer.
i am so so tired.
please. please stop torturing me.

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Wednesday, June 3, 2009

i have been neglecting my blog for days.
well, i am busy.
regrets regrets regrets!
if i have a second chance, I'll apologise.
people only learn to cherish when they have lost.
i have been saying this to tonnes of people.
but this haven't got stuck into my head.
i am trying to seriously.
your face was so pale, infact, its white!
but, its alright.
you will forever live in my heart :)
a proper post tomorrow.
had only a pathetic 2hour of sleep last night.
thank you for reading.