i didn't have the chance to bid you goodbye.
days ago we just had an arguement.
i complained that you talked too much at times.
i am sorry. i am sorry. i am sorry.
i didn't know you will just leave us so sudden.
i did not cherish you.
now that you are gone,
i realised the importance of you.
why didn't you tell us that you are not feeling well?
you are gone.
forever gone.
i promise, i'll miss you.
definitely.
thinking back of how i treated you in the past.
i am sorry. i am sorry. i am sorry.
no matter how much i am crying now, its all pointless.
goodbye.

its the 100th day.
i have been observing the time.
it will be 101th day in another eight minutes time.
i can't blame anyone for not remembering this.
i think i am the silly one who counted the number of days.
nobody can change the fact that i am growing older and older each day.
wasting time waiting and doing worthless things is just like wasting life.
i am not gonna waste my life.
maybe what malissa said is right.
she did saw you and stuff.
blah. rubbish.
i promise, all this will not bother me anymore.
in any ways, its not gonna affect my mood.
but still, i thank god for your presence.
pictures and tags reply will be up tomorrow.
went out the whole day.
its time to rest.
goodnight peeps:D

hey all.
well, went for ballet class today.
and yadadadah.
after class, went out with some of the ballet mates to whitesands.
then, took train and bused home.
bored yea? continue reading. hahas.
on my way back, when i am still in the interchange, waiting for bus 69,
there was this old man who came to me and start talking.
he talked about his perspective of life.
and i find it so cool!
i did not reply or say anything.
i smiled through out the whole conversation.
and i think he is really friendly.
though i only understand half the thingy that he is talking about.
also, he is not like those 'tikos'
he is just frustrated because he have been waiting for the bus for so long.
when the bus finally arrived, everyone rushed into the bus like some mad cows.
i think i am the only one who walked up into the bus.
hehs. and i felt so guilty after boarding the bus.
there is another old man then, who doesn't have a seat.
i thought of giving up my seat for him.
but he never look at my direction, i didn't want to embarrass my myself.
at that point of time thats what i am thinking.
i stared at him until i alighted the bus.
and i think i am really selfish.
if i had called him and directed him to the seat, then maybe he will at least have a seat.
he boarded the bus when he is still in tampines. and the bus is going to bedok!
gahhs. guity!
anyways, i am gonna end my post here.
tags will be repiled tomorrow.
i am so bored!
bye!

i am upset, super upset.
i have been waiting and counting down to that day.
one day after another, waiting and waiting.
it had been 32 days since i know that you will be coming.
i waited and waited.
gahhs. now, its left with three days and its cancelled.
i think i am getting used to it.
it has always been like this since the first outing we planned.
i can't blame anybody.
i am just being too difficult.
also, results were disappointing.
its all about myself.
i did not work hard.
i will definitely do better if i paid more attention in class.
i am upset, super upset.

hellos all.

well, went to school today.
tones of people did not attend school.
the whole school went out to Singapore Discovery Centre for a performance.
stayed there for the whole day.
learnt new things too.
Junyuan got talent is really entertaining.
enjoyed the whole performance.
i think my schoolmates did well.
to perform on stage needs lots of courage and determination.
well done! hahas.
my wishful thinking can easily begin to over shadow whats really occuring.
its time for a reality check.
i'll let the pictures to continue with this post then.

i can't believe this.
i am actually watching pokemon just now.
and spiderman right now.
hahas. well, having my last paper tomorrow.
its so stressful having exams almost everyday.
and POA is such a killer.
escaping my regular routine is always on my mind.
i have been feeling overloaded with commitments.
i haven't had time to just chill out with my friends.
i am starting to burn out.
picturing a carefree beach getaway is actually my brain's way of giving myself time off.
so i am gonna let myself get the real thing soon.
holidays were round the corner.
another week to go.
jiayous!
i miss you terribly. another 7 days to go. I'll endure:D

well, i broke my own promise.
i am blogging now.
hahas. also, my mom did not confiscate my lappy.
in some ways, i can't live without it.
anyways, Love story meets viva la vida.
awesome isn't it?
i fell in love with it the first time i heard it.
how i wish i knew someone who plays the piano like that.
its so cool.
there will be a bbq party for dance instructor tomorrow.
finally. i can enjoy myself.
it has been so long.
waking up everyday at 5, being people's alarm clock.
calling them. afraid that they will miss their exams,
i am stressed out.
i am so gonna find a quiet place and shout out loud.