things turned out to be so bad today.

first thing in the morning,

hope to reach ballet on time as i am always late and have to cab down.

but today, forgotten what time is ballet starting,

woke up super early, prepared and leave home.

thinking that ballet starts at 11.

i did not attend cca too.

but when i reached the community centre,

i remembered that it starts at 1145.

i was one hour earlier.

my brain was playing tricks with me.

ballet was okay and yadahdahdah.

was supposedly meeting ziming and group.

but ziming can't make it so, cancelled:(

i seriously miss him already.

sharifah doesn't have a phone with her,

so, waited for her at train station.

met her and decided to go bugis at first.

but i suggested to go changi airport.

haven't been there for so long.

and endded up, she lost her wallet.

she was a very fragile girl.

my heart shattered when seeing her cry.

she was really afraid of her mother.

hope that some kind hearted soul will return her the wallet.

she was seriously upset.

AMEN AMEN AMEN!

everything will turn out fine right?

anyways, i will be away for two days.

i won't be in singapore.

and of course i won't be able to attend school on monday.

will be back by tuesday i hope.

bye people. i will miss all of you.

and yes, all of you:D

rainbows were beautiful.

i saw two. its huge!

i was jumping up and down when i saw it.

the ground was still wet, and i almost fall.

little things like this can really make me very very happy.

hohos. i know its silly.

i didn't bring my phone along.

i did not manage to take down beautiful moments in my life.

i love that rainbow.

i want to see it again.

simply stunning!

it will be my ballet exam next week.

i can feel the anxiety within myself.

what if i forgotten my steps?

what if i fall?

i am a very clumsy person.

i will get nervous on important dates.

i love to embarrass myself unwillingly.

oh god! who is gonna save me?

school is causing me to be so stress.

chemistry TA tomorrow :(

may god bless me.

bye people.

i have received apologies.

and i think its time to stop this crap.

school is going to start tomorrow.

whereby, you have to carry heavy bags to school, homeworks, cca and teachers' rantings.

i am afraid of all this.

going to school is really a torture.

i don't enjoy cca as before.

its really tiring.

i will have either bruises or muscle aches after every practice.

even my parents object me to attend dance practices.

i know my body well,

this workout is seriously torturous.

but once sfy is over, i will have freedom.

i can go out on saturdays and enjoy cca a little more.

ballet exam is round the corner too.

STRESSED!

i don't know how much more i can endure.

but just have to continue the marathon until everything ends.

all i could do, is to pamper myself a little more.

making everyday a little happier.

i spent 2 hours just now to upload photos into facebook.

and that pathetic 2hours was wasted.

not even one of the pictures was successful.

i tried using picnik and its not helping.

i tried re-uploading, useless.

i will try photobucket the next time.

by using another computer, this lappy has a little prob.

but to me its still good because its mine.

hahas. you should be laughing too.

laughing is contagious!

i still can't forget trybe workshop.

each day, i woke up, i felt weird.

i just hope that this feeling will go off sooner or later.

cause i don't feel good.

i know i miss everything.

anyways, i am not going to reply tags.

cause its a little messy now.

replying will start again once i feel like it.

if you have managed to read till here,

it just proves that you are as bored as i am.

bye people.

i am currently very annoyed and disturbed by the tags going on.
here are all my collections.

( the ones highlighted are serious ones:D )
20 Feb 09, 20:13JoJo,♥: Not criticizing thm but just that maybe th problem lies with you. You love being innocent and th extra one. How sad, are u so lacked of love? Need someone to talk to?
20 Feb 09, 20:12JoJo,♥: Didn't ur brains teach u to have some common sense tht becoming a third party is bad? Acting innocent as if everything was Jiamin fault is also bad. Tsk, haven't ur teachers or parents taught u well?
21 Feb 09, 10:08JoJo,♥: And if i didn't respect her, i'll be saying alot of things abt her and scolding vulgaraties at her ardy lah -.-
21 Feb 09, 10:07JoJo,♥: Did i say i arguing, Michelle? I was just stating facts and waking isabell up from her senses.
20 Feb 09, 21:34passer by: please lar. those dont know what is going on or whatever, please dont act as if you know.. and is isabell thinking, she damn stupid enough to believe sms..
20 Feb 09, 21:31JoJo,♥: LOL!
20 Feb 09, 21:28passer by: 胸大无脑
20 Feb 09, 21:17passer by: maybe isabell was innocent too,but what about her?did anyone actually think for her b4? b4 you guys said anything when you dont even know what happend?
20 Feb 09, 21:15passer by: yet,still ranked up.she is innocent too.she don even know what the hell is happening.she just listened to what people said.thats why marco scolded her stupid.
20 Feb 09, 21:14passer by: We didn even said that it was isabell's fault in the first place. imagine you were her, how wil you feel?You helped isabell,yes. but hello do you know what's happening allalongnow? she didn accuse her
20 Feb 09, 21:05JoJo,♥: So are you also trying to say that it's JM's fault? I knw u're helping ur friend and i am also. But pls get th facts right first yeah?
20 Feb 09, 21:01JoJo,♥: Are you calling urself dumb? Thats why ur name is put down as dumb? So contradicting, tsk. Did i say tht it was entirely her fault? C'mon, read properly, dumb -.-
20 Feb 09, 20:16JoJo,♥: So pls ask urself wht went wrong before pointing urself at others. So, please grow up.
20 Feb 09, 20:16JoJo,♥: I thot only primary sch kids would know how to twist and turn. Tsk, its ardy th 21st century so pls grow up. Not everyone can stand ur "innocence".
20 Feb 09, 20:14JoJo,♥: If u wanna meet thm thn dont last minute back out. And stop saying that they bully u whn they didnt even do anything -.- Its pure childish and lame -.-
20 Feb 09, 20:13JoJo,♥: Go find some hotline like 1800-i-need-love-badly. Maybe it will do u some good and get some sense back into u agn.
can (JoJo,♥ & Passer by) help me decide if i should make a police report?
you can search on the web for more details.

you won't want to have criminal records at this young age.
i have read many reports that says that local police can help track down names and addresses from ip addresses.
you have exactly 48hrs to send me an apology email with your name and blog/friendster/facebook (to verify ur real name).

my email : xiian-yiing@hotmail.com
you decide. its your own criminal record. smiles(:
by then, if i recieve no response, so sorry=D

went to school this morning.

feeling really sleepy.

woke up earlier than usual.

was glad that i actually brought all the stuffs i need, to school.

this made me recall about the recent incident.

on 13feb, the school was celebrating venlentines.

so, the day before, stayed up at night baking cookies.

slept only at three.

the next day, overslept.

i packed everything.

and put it beside my school bag.

when going out, i forgotten to bring the bag of cookies i prepared for my friends.

luckily, amanda was at my house.

so, she delievered them to my school.

credits to amanda, she helped lots (:

anyways, back to topic, met sarifah and clement this morning.

made a super big card for our facilitator, ziming.

hahas. he claimed that he was touched.

i didn't want to attend school next week.

was so used to life this week.

even though, i laugh, cried, was furious, but seriously, i enjoyed this workshop.

our facilitator was great too.

he was super polite today.

still remembering, the first day when i attend the workshop.

i didn' want to go for the second day.

but i went eventually.

after the workshop, homed.

serious stuffs happened today.

well, is there a trend that states,

secondary three students must undergo being accused?

this is the second time i was being accused.

life is seriously hard.

well, i was really innocent like the other time when i was being accused.

i didn't like arguements.

i don't like thrid party either.

so, i wouldn't let myself be one.

so, please stop thinking too much.

i am sorry if i offended you at times.

but, seriously, i was furious just now.

well, did enjoy school for some while.

i was allocated to the orange bows group.

but wasn't feeing well anymore.

i felt like puking since late afternoon.

i am suffering from indigestion.

i just ate donuts and the lunch i had today.

acttually, there were some picture that i wanted to post.

but due to my current state,

continuing this post seems difficult already.

oh well, maybe i was drenched just now in the rain.

or i just don't have enough sleep.

whatever it is, i am tired.

i will still be going school tomorrow.

so, goodbye people.

i am sleeping now:D

i find it alittle dumb of me to actually close my blog.

i was finding peace within myself.

but in this way, i will be neglecting my daily reader, rumin:}

she claims that she was one.

anyways,

in the morning, went to school for cca.

was supposedly going for ballet.

but, teacher zhao did not allow us to leave.

the us that i was refering to, was me and gina.

and yadadah yadahdah yadadah.

after three hours of continuous practice.

my body was now aching.

especially my left arm.

well, after that went home to change and everything.

and went out with g.jiamin.

and homed.

well, its valentine's day.

everyone was embraced with love yea?

true love tends to make each day a little brighter.

agree to the above statement?

i do agree.

well, i know its boring so i am ending here.

happy valentine's day.

xoxo,

bells

rainbows aren't colorful anymore.

just dull so dull.

tears drop like a running tap.

the clouds weren't moving anymore.

i felt so abandon, leaving only myself to continue the marathon.

isn't life just about being accused and all?

sometimes, being yourself just don't help at all.

people just don't trust you.

its tuesday again.

tuesdays are cca days.

well, took back my chemisrty paper.

zhenyu, i got 8marks!

happy now?

i listened to you.

hahas. anyways, changed blog song again.

i went to imeem and this is what i found.

angel said that the previous song sounded sleepy.

so i changed again.

anyways, there will be maths TA tomorrow.

i am too tired to study.

i am very very tired.

goodnights people.

tags will be replied in the next update.

its just your luck to tag at a lazy bum's blog.

tsk tsk! bad choice.

the first photo taken by my phone.

its ugly, i know.

it was taken yesterday at the coffee shop near home.

my father was curious and *kacah*

the photo was taken.

well, my lips were oily.

my hair was messy.

my pose was ugly.

but its the first photo.

so, decided to post here.

i will delete it anyways.

do laugh at it, if you need to.

from now onwards,

i can post lots of photos in my blog.

hahas. i don't wish to continue.

i still have a POA homework.

goodnights people:D

went for tuition just now.

on my way back home,

there's a cat again.

have to walk one big round to reach home.

tomorrow, there will be dance practice in school.

and at 10++, will be rushing home to wash up.

and off to ballet.

and Sunday ballet again.

i have to be this busy for the next 7-9weeks.

i won't get enough sleep.

after SFY ended, finished ballet exam,

and hohos.

i will be free.

i will get back my freedom again.

i slept late every night.

anyways, i found my history book.

its found in between weixuan's book.

tired!

its so not peaceful here.

i cannot concentrate on this.

arguments between my mother and brother.

noisy. I'll stop here.

byes.

well, i came back to post.

now, i have reasons to be afraid of cats.

don't get bitten by a cat.

oh well,

can you believe it?

i think i am just too timid.

so, i learnt my lesson.

i should not go out alone anymore.

why are there animals in this world?

dumb dumb animals freak me out.

i went to deposit money just now.

i accompanied jingyun to get her stuffs for tomorrow.

and oh man, on my way back home,

i was thirsty.

so, i got a drink from the mart.

and that dumb dumb cat came running after me.

oh god, why are there hungry little animals in this world.

since they could grow so big,

there must be some kind hearted souls who fed them.

so i don't see why they should be hungry all the time.

damn it! feed the cats or dogs or whatever.

why am i born timid?

can't i be little more brave?

i have to learn to accept facts.

also, i lost my history textbook.

oh god.

trouble after trouble.

i learnt my lesson again.

i will bring my book home from today onwards.

but they were all so heavy.

or maybe i should get a locker.

i know i am agitated at this point of time.

but seriously, i have not recover from my shock.

i will not reply tags yet.

because my brain just cannot work properly.

"The best and most beautiful things in world cannot be seen,

nor touched..

but are felt in the heart."

valentine's day is round the corner.

2days after valentine's day,

will be obs camp.

hahas.

Pre-orders for valentine gifts!

its suppose to be a joke.

please laugh people!

well, i am tired, very very tired.

slept late this few days.

i am gonna sleep at 945pm tonight.

its a promise i made for myself.

went for cca just now.

lots of people watching.

it felt so weird.

preferred practices on saturdays.

the practice today, was torturing.

tired, very tired.

i stated twice that i am tired.

so can you imagine how tired i am?

not going to do homeworks tonight.

did i mention that i am very disappointed in myself?

i realised that i did not get my desired marks for all my tests.

especially chemistry.

i got 4/10.

did not study though.

thought that i am able to cope.

the higher i expect, the harder i will fall.

life is hard.

you just can't sleep whole day dreaming that money will fall from sky.

i didn't want to attend school tomorrow.

there will be PE.

but i am not sick.

my parents will urge me to go.

also, its kindda stupid skipping school just for PE.

hence, i have to attend school.

BORING. my blog is dull, i know.

might be change to livejournal.

their functions seems to be better.

will update soon.

buhbyes.

i spent half hour to type this post.

slow huh?

neverminds.