well, well. this week is packed with so many things.

its new year!

its the day when my father drove our family to malaysia to visit my relatives.

and the day whereby my father was being conned!

stupid freaking old man!

we were at one of malaysia's patrol station when that man came towards us.

his age is around 25-3o++

he can walk.

he can talk.

he wore pretty clothes.

okays here's the scenario.

first when we just came out of the patrol station,

he came forward us with a wicked smile.

wanted to sell us a watch.

but we refused to buy from him.

we got into the car.

when my father wanted to close the door,

he ran forward, stood at the side of my father's car.

kept begging and begging.

we got so irritated by him but we do not want conflicts.

so, we agreed to buy the watch from him.

we gave RM100 to him.

but he is unhappy and wanted more.

and yadadadah.

you should know what happened.

he even tried to cry.

gave him more and drove away.

i bet his watch is either stolen or those from night markets.

was furious. damn him.

GAHHS. if that happen in singapore, he will be punished hashly.

wish him all the worst.

hahas! then we went to our relative's house.

the place was flooded with tons of people.

but the house is big enough.

at noon, we started gambling.

we played as tough RM(don't know how to spell the actual word)worth nothing.

we played from RM5 to RM5o to RM2oo plus.

its abit too much for gambling 'blackjack' and 'in between'.

we gambled all the way to the next day at 4.

i was too tired so i was the one who sleep first.

woke up at 9plus and wash up and yadadadah.

then watch television.

at noon, my father drove all of us home PEACEFULLY.

did not attend school.

super tired and kindda sick.

i remembered i woke up at noon.

at the later part of the day,

my grandfather was admitted into hospital.

visited him and homed.

school-ed!

then forgotten.

school-ed.

supposedly, should go for CCA after school.

but something cropped up.

there was nobody at home to take care of my grandfather,

i was still kindda sick,

and was seriously tired.

so homed:D

its 1126 now i ahve dance practice tomorrow.

goodbyes people!

heys, i am not dead!

hahas. had a wonderful dream just now.

but, i forgotten what i dreamt of.

its 910 now.

i have just woke up.

damn tired.

slept at 139 last night.

i am now waiting for my granny.

she is in the toliet.

i wanna sleep.

my eyes were half shut.

so if there is typo, don't blame me.

blame my eyes:D

just wanted to say,

goodbye people.

i will miss all of you.

hahas. not really all.

some of you i meant.

i can't remember everybody.

anyways, bye!

people spoil my mood easily.

this is what charlton did.

charlton says:
happy lunar new ry
yr*
- [♥]BELLBELL says:
its alr new year
wake up!
charlton says:
zzz nvm
- [♥]BELLBELL says:
hahs
what?
charlton says:
nth la go tok to ur ben bye bye

he wished my happy new year.

and told me off.

what did i do?

its new year and he did it on purpose.

we argued again.

i am tired about all of this.

i'll just stay away from trouble.

anyways, went to help my mother just now in the salon.

after that, went to meet jinyun and back to salon.

on my way back, my heart hurts badly.

heart problem. hahas i don't know.

i can still feel the pain.

maybe i will be dead on my way to dreamland.

if i am really dead,

please attend my funeral.

hahas. touch wood touch wood.

anyways, happy cny;D

its 1246 now.

i know i did not keep my promise to sleep at 12.

hahas goodnights:D

(random picture found from file.)

woke up at 1112 today.

slept late last night. terribly late.

wash up and went to watch tv.

watched GX5 from OKTO.

its nice. seriously.

because zhenyan was in the show.

he is damn adorable nor.

at 12, i went back to my room again.

used the lappy till now.

well, i changed my blogsong again.

girls are fickle remember?

wangqin, my china pal, currently in china,

messaged me. did not reply to her.

i don't know what to reply.

some inspirations please.

i love LG viewty.

its gorgeous.

life is bored.

something is missing.

maybe because there is no ballet today?

its weird.

will be meeting jinyun later to return her something.

zhenyu promised to send me a new year msg at 12am sharp today.
lets see if he is going to be late.

maybe updating again tonight.

if not, please wish me bon voyage.

i will be leaving soon.

i don't know when.

will be back either tuesday or wednesday.

i don't know when either.

don't you see?

i am actually trying to lenghten my post?

reunion dinner later?

people will be comming to my house.

try to update again later.

goodbyes.

went to school as usual.
during lessons, i could feel the anxiety within myself.
omg. its so awful.
was dreaded to go through the lessons.
at 943 sharp, went to canteen realising that i am the last one.
supposedly, the chinese dance members should reach at 930 to have breakfast.
but i feel irresponsible leaving english class without finishing work.
so time passed.
finally its concert.
its the first performance i had for the year.
waited waited then TATA!
did not do really well for the performance.
was really scared.
its the first time feeling like that.
its embarrassing.
every one was like laughing so hard,
when we were sweating profusely.
trying to present ourselves in the best way.
dumb dumb people.
after school, went out with james:D
we both did alot of shopping.
in total, we spent almost 400plus.
i bought something something and heels.
damn loving the heels.
its simple yet classic.
3inches high.
glad that i am still able to walk with heels on.
forgotten how i endured through the latin dance classes when i am primary four.
wore four inches for 2hours++ each lesson.
after that homed.
then family gathering not reunion dinner.
then blah blah blah, homed.
thanks for reading earthlings.
:D

i slept fitfully last night.

all because of that intruder.

that lizard.

it makes me feel uncomfortable speaking of that lizard.

i don't know where is it already.

it maybe gone, or maybe somewhere in my room.

that little lizard may think that i am overly friendly.

so it came to my room.

i don't deny that i am friendly.

hahas. i can be super friendly if you are polite to me.

heehs =D

went for rehersal just now.

nothing special.

i can skip classes tomorrow.

i don't have to attend maths and half of english.

yippee. sometimes there are advantages.

the concert tomorrow will be a super duper short one.

hahas. chinese dance is the last item for the concert tomorrow.

can't imagine myself dancing like that.

its weird.

i will blush. there will be tons of people tomorrow.

i am already feeling the anxiety.

hope that its gonna be a good one.

pray that no one will end up laughing.

i prepared everything for tommorow.

also, i will not be able to attend tuition tomorrow.

cause will be having reunion dinner at night.

how i love chinese new year.

skip so many things.

oh my god. this is heaven.

hahas. during chinese new year,

may not be in singapore.

as i will be visiting some relatives from other country.

hahas. i am so so happy.

after so many waitings, new year is arriving soon.

i wonder if i could sleep later on.

will update again tomorrow if i have the time.

goodnights people :D

this week is horrible.

yesterday, i accidentally step onto a dead bird.

i step onto it!

it almost become roti prata i think.

its terrifying.

i was rushing to meet my brother.

so did not really notice whats lying on the floor.

i was still walking and walking.

and i felt weird.

so, i turned around to look what i stepped onto.

to my horror, its a dead bird.

my face turned green i think.

i felt guilty after that.

this incident made me recall what happened many many years ago.

i saw a bird being murdered infront of my own eyes.

till now, the images were still vividly on my mind.

sign. and today, a lizard invaded my room!

goodness gracious.

i saw it and screamed.

and i was scolded.

life is tough.

especially for timid people like me.

i rushed to my father asking him to chase the lizard out.

he was watching the news then.

and ignored me until he finished.

i waited and waited.

finally he agreed to help.

but to my disgust, the lizard ran away.

lizards really do have good stamina.

well well,

hellos people.

i changed my blog song.

its a very sweet piece.

i love the composer.

anyone could play this, is beyond supernatural.

you people out there better not tell me that you will fall asleep after listening.

it will be an insult to me.

respect the composer.

now, close your eyes.

Relax and enjoy:D

don't fall asleep.

buhbyes.

god is always there for me.

i made the decision to accept Jesus.

it means that Jesus has forgiven my sins

and given me the ability to overcome evil desires.

and yet, i am blinded with situations thinking that he is not there at all.

god will never leave you alone with your problems.

but he will lighten your burdens.

no one can rob us of our relationship with god,

except when we choose to abandon him.

god promises his children that he is always there for us

inspite of circumstances or how we feel.

god wants to bless us as he is our heavenly father.

reading bible actually bring protection and blessings for our lives.

god loves us.

STRESSED. STRESSED. STRESSED.

can you feel how stressful i am right now?

dion made me feel so guilty.

i know its my mistake at first.

but seriously,

i am not into the thing we talk about earlier on.

and seriously, i am cherishing everything i am having now.

you don't understand me.

not even any earthlings.

how i hope everybody could understand what is going through my mind.

i am a very good girl.

i listened to my mother.

it makes no sense for you to say that i am a bad girl.

anyways, today, recieved my grey toga from my mailbox.

was so schocked when i saw the parcel.

its packed till its so small.

thank you MHM.

i want chalet.

it will be fun.

randoness. i know.

buhbyes.

everyday was the same.
The anger I felt was like a prodding pen.
you caused my blood to bitter with the presence of hate.
i hid my tears but to no avail.
in my mind, i know i am screaming.
did my watery eyes give you no hint?
for now, when i am at home,
it means four walls and a lonely bed.
i cried so hard that when i woke up this morning,
my eyes swelled.
whatever happened had took place.
i felt abandoned.
The echoing of past memories are burning and scalding with intensity.
it hurts me badly.

i do everything is just because of you.
now this is how you treat me back?
you give me false promises.
do you know that i am very fragile?
i cannot take shocks.
i may appear to be strong infront of you.
but its just that i don't want to let you see how weak i am.
i cannot take it any more.
i hate being like how i used to be.
its getting on my nerves.
i know that you may not be able to see this post at all.

i can also be independent.
i don't need you.
i am not a small girl any more.
i grown up.

heys hellos people. this will gonna be a damn long post.
last saturday, went to cca fair.
its quite fun.
wei ren's brother is damn adorable okays.
watched his show yesterday.
its nice. i enjoyed it.
he is such a kai xin guo to me.
how i wish i have a brother like him.
i cannot fail to laugh when i saw him.
he is too humorous.
went to school with jingyun and him today.
actually meeting jingyun under her block.
but he was in the same lift with her.
so we went to school together.
huijun says he looks like a mashi maro.
not sure spelling was correct.
his eyes were damn small lols.
i wonder, can he actually see me?
hahas.
anyways, went out with rumin and jiamin just now.
went to bugis first, to get my dance shoes, then off to meet a guy.
he is so horrible.
he is not even a gentleman can.
he just took something from jiamin without her permission.
and he made us waited 3 times just for him.
each of it, lasted more than 20mins.
first, he made us wait at the MRT station.
then, for him to cut his hair.
third, he made us wait for him to eat.
the worst of all, he burp thrice infront of us.
its rude to do so.
i wondered, don't he feel embarrass?
alrights, he is jiamin's friend shouldn't elaborate much.
eventhough i had post lots of him already.
i know its rude but i cannot keep it in my heart.
TERRY IS ALOT BETTER THAN HIM.
first of all, he won't make us wait.
second, he offered to buy drinks for jiamin.
third, he won't call us to do anything.
fourth, i am sure that he will keep his promises.
fifth, he is much better looking.
sixth, he have better attitude.
seventh, he is much introverted.
eighth, he won't take things without permission.
ninth, he has table manners.
tenth, the three of us like him more than the guy we met today.
i am glad that eveything was over.
just wish jiamin all the best and sorry if i offened you.
last of all, its great to recieve so many tags from you all.
it feels great.
buhbyes.

went to school today.
its tiring.
i even missed tuition.
was too tired for tuition.
had dance practice.
there were bruises on my arms and knees.
its such a torture.
this will be the last SYF that i am going for.
had to go school tomorrow.
its CCA fair.
luckily i am not dancing tomorrow.
i don't have time to read!
i am still at eclipse.
anyways, finished shopping at myhulamonkey.
their services were great.
now, all i need to do is to wait for the parcel to reach me.
hahas. take a look there. think that you guys will like it.
anyways, its for girls!
go there if you are a girl!
hahas. http://myhulamonkey.blogspot.com or myhulamonkey.livejournal.com
ENJOY!
i don't know what to write already.
buhbyes :D

well, i changed my blogskin.
i felt sick looking at the same blogskin over some time.
so, i changed it.
i have not fully edited my blogskin.
my brother got his guitar back.
and he is making tons of noise.
noise pollution also causes anxiety you know.
hahas. went for ballet this afternoon.
then homed.
my life is dull. i know.
tomorrow will be a greater day.
i will try to upload pictures into my blog.
to make it more colorful.
from my point of view,
pictures are the ones making those effects.
making the whole blog colorful.
update tomorrow.
goodbyes.

this is what my birthday means.
and i find it true enough.
this is about me.
You are sensitive and vulnerable.
Tears often run down your cheeks even when the matter is not that bad.
This might be the result from being to pessimistic.
You might seem cold on the shell, but your inner self is a loving person.
Your Love, You will be elegantly dressed, no matter how casually dressed your date may be.
You are demanding in love and sometimes to an unacceptable extend.

my greatest strength.
Optimistic, brilliantly sociable and motivated to win the best in life.

my greatest weakness.
Unrealistic, stubborn and reluctant to confront problems.

jobs that i should pursue.
Politicians and media men.

i have nothing to post so i posted this.

school reopened today.

i am officially upgraded to secondary three.

but i do have a retaining feeling.

sadded nor.

secondary three's' should actually sit at the back when assembling.

but now, we switched places with the secondary two's'.

stupid plan.

why don't move the secondary five's' or four's' forward?

anyways, school was alright today.

nothing special.

just that there are alot of talkings.

wasted lots of time.

craps!

looking forward to the next day in school.

i enjoy being in class.

its fun. my new form teacher is really weird.

other teachers don't give warning but he does.

funny huh? hahas.

not really. i know.

sec 3 is the year when we have to go to OBS!

dumb dumb. i don't wish to go and i can't go.

hahas. there will be a dance practice tomorrow.

bored. will end up having muscle ache again on the following day.

i am getting busier and busier.

holidays gone.

my schedule for every week is

monday to friday school and revisions.

saturday and sunday dance

this will last all the way to april or may.

and there will be a slight changes.

i will e free on saturday then.

i am so busy until i cannot even have the time to read.

now, my time is still haywired.

i couldn't sleep.

and was really tired this afternoon and took a nap.

its not enough at all.

my nap lasted for 3hours plus plus.

a long long one.

if its not that i am having tuition at 6o'clock,

i think i am still sleeping now.

i wonder, am i still free for business?

i needed money badly.

hahas. broke!

anybody want to donate me some?

RUBBISH! hahas.

buhbyes :D